Your disillusion really resonates with my experience, and likely many others. The thing is, if you had succeeded in all you wanted, you would still be asking the same questions by now.

There are times for disillusion in everyone’s life.

Look at it as an opportunity. A moment in the now - where you are not only open to, but also craving, for a new direction or a different mindset on the direction to move forward.

I strongly believe in correct forward.

That means valuing your previous experiences, valuing feedback from others in the present, and striving for better in the future.

I would say you are two thirds there buddy!